A Request

Take me out of here, if I beg enough times will you comply? Lock the door and throw away the key, in fact no, grind that key and burn it, give me the ashes so I can cover my stupid heart and put it in its place, wipe away my genetics and be sure to shred my identity, drain my mind of ambition and shut the cover of my book of imagination, bleed the creativity from me and steam away the idea dreams come true, make me blind to what could be and please, if there’s one thing that I could request, make me forget that simple, haunting truth.

One chance, that’s all you get.

We were made to be AWESOME!

Heyy everyone!

I’m off to Georgia for a training course on multiculturalism tomorrow (funded by the EU-if anyone wants to know a bit more I’d be happy to tell you about it!). I just wanted to leave you guys with basically the coolest kid in the world, you’ve probably already seen him but it can’t hurt to watch it again! =D Enjoy!

Give the World a reason to dance!
xx

P.S. Am so sorry if I haven’t yet replied to your comments, I will do as soon as I can!

Flabbergasted!

Wow! I can’t believe it but I’ve been nominated for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award by both the lovely apatheticpoet and Honest Speaks It really is an honour and to be nominated by two bloggers who are each so inspiring in their own ways and who I would nominate myself for the same award makes it so much more special. Thank you! If you haven’t already go and check their blogs out now

I realise that technically speaking as I was nominated twice maybe I should have to nominate 30 bloggers instead of the required 15 and give you 14 interesting facts about myself instead of 7 but I’m going to be honest and say I don’t think I’ll be able to do that at all so I’ll stick to the normal amounts. Okay, here goes!

The Rules:

1.) Display the award logo on your blog.
2.) Link back to the person who nominated you.
3.) State 7 things about yourself.
4.) Nominate 15 bloggers for this award.
5.) Notify those bloggers of the nomination by linking to one of their specific posts so that they get notified by ping back.

Okay seven things about myself. Hmm.. Let’s see…

1) I collect rubbers (Or for those people across the pond, erasers! ).
2) Although I only just discovered it the quotation I now live by is ‘All things are One’ from the absolutely amazing The Alchemist.
3) I’ve only just started to play the guitar.
4) I start writing novels and fail to finish them, currently I have about 6 different storylines all awaiting completion.
5) I have a dream that maybe, just maybe, one day I could go into acting (literally the only reason I haven’t pursued it yet is that I that I feel my headscarf would hold me back).
6) My favourite musician is the American hip-hop artist Citizen Cope.
7) My favourite fictional book is Remember Me by Trezza Azzopardi (in NO way related to that Robert Pattison whatshisname movie)

(I realise these are in no way interesting but I think I put my most interesting things down in my last nomination! Or I’m just plain old boring. Yeah. I think that’s it)

I’ve decided that the blogs I wish to nominate are people whose work I may not have read a lot of but I have come across maybe one of their posts that has really inspired me in some way or another. They really are all great writers and have so much to say and offer. I wish them and every beautiful person reading this all the best in life to continue to inspire us all to do great things and stay happy =D

I haven’t quite managed 15 but I hope that’s okay. I know after a while I’ll remember someone else I should have put in so I want to apologise in advance! So, in no order at all, they are…

http://liveanonymous.wordpress.com/

http://livinginrecovery.wordpress.com/

http://skipmars.wordpress.com/

http://lifewalk2ooo.wordpress.com/

http://ikbignitethelight.wordpress.com/

http://alesiablogs.wordpress.com/

http://emmytheemu.wordpress.com/

http://rosepetalsonrock.wordpress.com/

http://bartwolffe.wordpress.com/

http://aunicornwithcancer.wordpress.com/

http://mythoughtsonthesubjectareasfollows.wordpress.com/

http://livelovelifealways.wordpress.com/

Once again THANK YOU so much to apatheticpoet and Honest Speaks!

All things are One! xx

65 Days and Counting…

It’s been 65 days since my last seizure which for me is a huge thing seeing I normally have them at least every three weeks. Since my last seizure led to me being cooped up in hospital for two days (which I can’t complain about seeing I met one of the most inspirational women in my life there), my doctor has been very surprised with this recent break. Just to clarify I am not epileptic, the doctors have so far failed to find out what triggers my seizures although the general concensus is that it is probably stress and a build up of emotions that can have a real physical effect. However, talking to my doctor last night I think I may have my own theories to explain it. The only difference I feel is that, quite simply, lately I have been a lot happier. It’s weird to think that being happy can make such a huge difference to someone’s life but I honestly believe that the changes that have happened within me, my drive to become more positive and to take problems and issues in my stride, really have helped to settle my mind and calm me down. It’s no coincidence therefore that my last seizure occurred during one of the lowest points of my life and since then I haven’t had another one since I made the concious decision to remain positive.

And I guess that’s why I wanted to write this post, to stress how important it is to remain positive and to try and look at the better sides of things. I’m not aiming this just at those who suffer with any sort of physical illness, to me negativity is something that affects us all and can then manifest itself in different ways. It might just be that we feel down a lot of the time or find it hard to concentrate or socialise. Maybe we find it that extra bit difficult to get out of bed in the morning or sometimes we just feel like we can’t face the world and everybody in it today. Even spending time with our families and the people closest to us becomes a chore and we can’t help but look at others with a sense of envy. I’m not saying I’ve overcome it, I think we’re all going through it but I think we can always help each other through it too and that way sharing these feelings makes them so much easier to conquer and change. The most important thing is perception, if we can change our perspective of something we can control our feelings about them and therefore we can have control over our own happiness.

Here’s wishing that all you beautiful people out there stay strong and happy today and always =D
xx

Laughter makes the world go round!

This has to be one of the funniest and cutest videos I’ve seen in a very long time! If you’re having a bit of a bad time in your life I think this little munchkin’s beautiful laughter is sure to make you smile for a little while at least

I don’t think there’s much else to say except enjoy!

Crashes and blows

You’re slicing me up with words and leaving my skin splattered on the kerb,
you’re gathering up my penny hopes and trying to make them burn,
swallowing up my rainbows and leaving pots of coal,
burning me so deep that only I will ever know.

Your tongue is like a whip of fire that scars deeper than your blows,
and everytime it lashes down your ego only grows,
it’s going to consume this family
and blast it into space,
and in its wake,
only guilt and shame,
and love consumed by greed.

New Year Resolution #3- Smile for who you are

I know New Years has passed and the time to set resolutions is slowly waning but I actually made this resolution a few days ago but didn’t have a chance to write it up until now. Another difficult one but for me it’s probably going to be the most important. It is to be happy with yourself, with who you are and to strive to be the best that you can be. I know my resolutions are difficult, but last year was a huge year for me in which I experienced so much change that has opened my eyes to the important things in life. It has taught me to appreciate and has taught me to be human again, but most importantly it has shown me that I don’t need to try and be somebody I am not, I don’t need to pretend and I don’t need to look at what I want in life. Instead I need to look at what I have and, more importantly, what I am. Looking back on my first few posts where I wanted to find out what was lacking I realised one of those things was happiness, it is something we all strive for and is something we always want to achieve. I was unhappy for a long part of my life but as I have grown and moved on to different stages so has my character and my understanding of myself. And with trials and difficulties that character grows and you begin to understand yourself more. At first I didn’t like what I saw but this only drove me to hate myself more and to ignore the problem itself. But as I grew and learnt more I realised that you can only run from a problem for so long. Eventually I was put into a position where I had to look at myself and acknowledge my own faults. But most importantly I made a concious decision to change myself, to become more positive, more open and more tolerant.

And then one morning not too long ago, when it was particularly beautiful, when the air seemed all the more fresher and when the sun seemed that little bit brighter, I woke up and realised that for once I wasn’t filled with the anger, pain and hurt that seemed to welcome me every morning. Everything just seemed so… normal. And inside there was nothing. Absolutely naught. Zip. Nada. And as the days went on that void began to fill, I started to enjoy things more, I could laugh without having to force myself to, I could look at all those people who I thought had everything without that shameful feeling of jealousy that I wish I had never felt. And inside something began to unfurl and grow and all of a sudden I realised that it was happiness. I knew straight away that the reason why this was so was because I could finally look at myself and accept the better side of me that I had worked so hard to bring out. It was difficult to acknowledge my own faults and even more difficult to try and change them. To force myself to smile more often and make the effort to treat people with the kindness that they had given me. To weigh up my problems with those of others, to be more accepting of everything that was in my life and not to always be asking why it was like that and wishing it wasn’t. But now I look back on it I am so grateful that I did, I am glad in a way that I have been through the things I have been through and continue to go through because it has made me who I am today. I am all the more stronger for it and I am now even more determined to live each day with the single goal of becoming more human, of making sure that we haven’t lost our humanity.

It’s been a recent change within me and so this is why I want to make this my New Years Resolution. I want this to last but more importantly I need it to last because I never want to go back to those dark places again. Happiness is fragile and it can break so easily. But you can be damn sure that I won’t give it up without a fight.

And now for some quotes with attitude…

 

A personal favourite…

And the customary n’awww photo…

I think that’s the last of my resolutions that I wanted to write on here. Of course there are other ones like stop procastinating by writing this blog instead of revising for my exams but I’ve kind of already broken them so I guess there’s no point really…

I hope 2013 is going absolutely amazing for everyone and I pray this year gives you all the chance to become the most beautiful that you can be. Keep smiling =D

xxx

P.S. all photos have been nicked from the Internet apart from the last one which was nicked from a friend *insert legal sentence to ensure I don’t get sued here*